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Thursday, April 22, 2004

Just Be Yourself

Why does everyone feel the need to change who they are for the one they want to be with? You are who you are and that is not going to change. You can hide it for a while, but if you are going to be with someone, eventually they are going to find out the little things that you have hidden. Then after you have become attached, they start to lose interest. Yes by changing some things, you did get the time of day from that certain person. But you both know that when it started to not work out, it hurt so much worse. And now you have feelings for them so being their friend is pretty much out of the question. All im saying is that, just be yourself. I have nothing to hide and when i meet people i tell them exactally who i am and whai i am all about, and the last many times it has not worked out. and right now that sucks. But one day it will pay off and everything will of been worth it. But there is someone out there that will like you for who you are not what you can be, so just stay trut to yourself and stay strong and they will soon come along.

"Throughout life you will meet one person who is unlike any other. This person is one you could forever talk to. They understand you in a way that no one else does or ever could. This person is your soulmate, your best friend. Don't ever let them go, for they are your guardian angel sent from heaven up above."


Thursday, April 15, 2004

Ok everyone, sorry about the time gap, doing nothing is hard day after day, and sometimes it just catches up, but im all better now. Anyway, so life is very interesting at this moment, not too much going on. Just working and hanging out.
The one problem im having is this girl problem. If anyone has any advice please leave comments, they help. So whenever i meet a girl that i think i could connect with i have no proplem asking them out, or talking to them, thats not the problem. The problem is that it never works out, the last like 5 girls that i dated or "talked" to just went to shit. They seem so great at first then it just all turns to shit. Im not sure why these feelings are happening. There is one reason that i can think of but who knows. At one point in my life i was more in love than i think is possable, and it was the best time of my life. We hit it off the second we met and never looked back till we broke up. But i don't see in these girls what i saw in her and i think that may be effecting it. My feelings just go away. Since Me and Jared don't really "go out" like to clubs or anything its hard to meet more people. So also along with some good advice, if anyone knows any friends looking, let me know.....

"I would rather risk my heart to the possibility of pain, than to never feel love again. To live without love is merely existing. There is no greater pain than that."

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

"The stars are constantly shining, but often we do not see them until the darkest hours."

There are many great things going on in everyones life at all times. The only problem is that we are waiting until everything has gone wrong, till we have nothing left, we have used all our time and energy trying to fix the bad things in life instead of just finding more good things. Everyone will have ups and downs, the happy people are the ones that find good instead of dwelling on the bad.

The last couple of days have been pretty good. Got a day off work so thats fun. Also talked to a long lost P-towner and I think we may hang out next week. (Any other long losters feel free to get with me, make my day.) But other than that, just living life to its fullest, waiting for summer!

Sunday, April 04, 2004

Ok so the other people that i know that have these, well theres are sweet and mine sucks. And the reason for this is that i am not the brightest child and i can't remember how to do HTML code very well. So.... i have decited to change my approach. One quote a day, a meaningfull quote with an explanation and what it has to do with my day. And that is how i shall tell my daily happenings (Like u care anyway), but anyway just thought u should know

"I would rather do something and find out that it was the wrong thing, than never know if it was the right thing."
As many of you know, many things have been going on lately, some good some bad. But either way, I'm not going to not do things because someone else says its "wrong" or not fun or whatever. I know that many bad things that happen are directly my fault, its just the way things are for me. Even on the female side of life. Things never seem to go right with them. Its never both ways, ill like a girl that wants nothing to do with me, or has a boyfriend (happens monthly) and the next girl will have the biggest thing for me, but I could not bare them. But I will pursuit any girl I have feelings for, no matter what the situation looks like at the beginning, you never know until you actually try. And that's what ill do.


Friday, April 02, 2004

Hello everyone, i know its been a very long time. I just got depressed by everyones sweet bolgs that i didn't post anymore. But now im over it, and i have a few weeks to go over so i hope you enjoy. Im still doing pretty good, just chillin at the appartment. Im still kinda upset that doug and ross are the only ones that have visited me, and it was so long ago and so many things have changed, they too need to visit again. So people like.... dan, lisa, mandy, tracy, stacy, shannon, erin, and anyone elsse u need to call me when u read this and come visit sometime! I am still doing terrible in school b/c of other things going on in life, and sience last summer sucked so so much i feel like i still need to make up for it and stuff, so i choose to never do schoolwork. It kinda sucks b/c i am sorta proving everyone right. Many people said theres no way i could make it through school and so far im not doing to well. But i think i just need to have the summer of my life this summer and settle down next year and things will be much better.
I do have a job that isn't too bad and it is like 2 minutes from my house. And jared works there too so its not that bad. I make pizzas for Papa Romanos, im still learning everything right now and only get $8.00, but I am training to be their new night manager so i will be getting like $10-11.00 this summer so thats pretty nice.
In this drought of not talking to this blogger, i did visit Western 2 times with Jared. It was such a different expierence, i feel as though im missing somthing going to a college without dorms. Everyone is so nice, all the guys are nice, the girls are even nicer, they don't judge you, they are just cool. I dunno, it seem like i bitch a lot and most of it is my fault. I could of gone to NY and lived in dorms, I could of passed my classes and not be prro whatever..... if anyone wants to visit just let me know.....

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