Smokey Jon - Lit Up

Saturday, May 29, 2004

For those of you who don't know, this is about the post on Doug's page and my comments to it and the slew of comments thereafter. Its like 4 posts from the top, with like 20 comments on it. |

Ok i am going to try to help everyone out here. Sorry if you are not involved in this, and you have no clue whats going on. Anyway it was me that made that first post and not its getting turned into many things it shouldn't be.

For ally ou brightoners, i don't know you but, i do remember doug telling me he had a great time, so you shouldn't worry about that.

And for the mean and funny thing, ive ragged on a lot of people in my time, and i can tell you looking back on some of it, its really stupid, and probably not funny for the person reciving it. Now doug i know that you aren't trying to make people have a bad time wherever you are, all im saying is that sometimes it seems like that. Just a little tip.

Also to you doug, just personally, it just makes me feel bad when you talk about things about me. Sure i live a different lifestyle than you, im not trying to change you, its just what i am, sure ive messed up lots of things but im just figureing things out. If you don;t want to do things with me or talk to me thats your choice, i can't control that. You, ross and dan are my boys forever, id die for you guys, that first post was just simply me trying to tell you that some of the things you say hurt a lot more than you think. Sorry if i offend you or anyone else, but thats all i got.

"True friends are the people that are there for you unconditionally. They are the people that never question you and support you no matter what the circumstances are. They are the people worth living for."

"A friend is one who knows all about you and likes you anyway."

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."


Thursday, April 22, 2004

Just Be Yourself

Why does everyone feel the need to change who they are for the one they want to be with? You are who you are and that is not going to change. You can hide it for a while, but if you are going to be with someone, eventually they are going to find out the little things that you have hidden. Then after you have become attached, they start to lose interest. Yes by changing some things, you did get the time of day from that certain person. But you both know that when it started to not work out, it hurt so much worse. And now you have feelings for them so being their friend is pretty much out of the question. All im saying is that, just be yourself. I have nothing to hide and when i meet people i tell them exactally who i am and whai i am all about, and the last many times it has not worked out. and right now that sucks. But one day it will pay off and everything will of been worth it. But there is someone out there that will like you for who you are not what you can be, so just stay trut to yourself and stay strong and they will soon come along.

"Throughout life you will meet one person who is unlike any other. This person is one you could forever talk to. They understand you in a way that no one else does or ever could. This person is your soulmate, your best friend. Don't ever let them go, for they are your guardian angel sent from heaven up above."


Thursday, April 15, 2004

Ok everyone, sorry about the time gap, doing nothing is hard day after day, and sometimes it just catches up, but im all better now. Anyway, so life is very interesting at this moment, not too much going on. Just working and hanging out.
The one problem im having is this girl problem. If anyone has any advice please leave comments, they help. So whenever i meet a girl that i think i could connect with i have no proplem asking them out, or talking to them, thats not the problem. The problem is that it never works out, the last like 5 girls that i dated or "talked" to just went to shit. They seem so great at first then it just all turns to shit. Im not sure why these feelings are happening. There is one reason that i can think of but who knows. At one point in my life i was more in love than i think is possable, and it was the best time of my life. We hit it off the second we met and never looked back till we broke up. But i don't see in these girls what i saw in her and i think that may be effecting it. My feelings just go away. Since Me and Jared don't really "go out" like to clubs or anything its hard to meet more people. So also along with some good advice, if anyone knows any friends looking, let me know.....

"I would rather risk my heart to the possibility of pain, than to never feel love again. To live without love is merely existing. There is no greater pain than that."

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

"The stars are constantly shining, but often we do not see them until the darkest hours."

There are many great things going on in everyones life at all times. The only problem is that we are waiting until everything has gone wrong, till we have nothing left, we have used all our time and energy trying to fix the bad things in life instead of just finding more good things. Everyone will have ups and downs, the happy people are the ones that find good instead of dwelling on the bad.

The last couple of days have been pretty good. Got a day off work so thats fun. Also talked to a long lost P-towner and I think we may hang out next week. (Any other long losters feel free to get with me, make my day.) But other than that, just living life to its fullest, waiting for summer!

Sunday, April 04, 2004

Ok so the other people that i know that have these, well theres are sweet and mine sucks. And the reason for this is that i am not the brightest child and i can't remember how to do HTML code very well. So.... i have decited to change my approach. One quote a day, a meaningfull quote with an explanation and what it has to do with my day. And that is how i shall tell my daily happenings (Like u care anyway), but anyway just thought u should know

"I would rather do something and find out that it was the wrong thing, than never know if it was the right thing."
As many of you know, many things have been going on lately, some good some bad. But either way, I'm not going to not do things because someone else says its "wrong" or not fun or whatever. I know that many bad things that happen are directly my fault, its just the way things are for me. Even on the female side of life. Things never seem to go right with them. Its never both ways, ill like a girl that wants nothing to do with me, or has a boyfriend (happens monthly) and the next girl will have the biggest thing for me, but I could not bare them. But I will pursuit any girl I have feelings for, no matter what the situation looks like at the beginning, you never know until you actually try. And that's what ill do.


Friday, April 02, 2004

Hello everyone, i know its been a very long time. I just got depressed by everyones sweet bolgs that i didn't post anymore. But now im over it, and i have a few weeks to go over so i hope you enjoy. Im still doing pretty good, just chillin at the appartment. Im still kinda upset that doug and ross are the only ones that have visited me, and it was so long ago and so many things have changed, they too need to visit again. So people like.... dan, lisa, mandy, tracy, stacy, shannon, erin, and anyone elsse u need to call me when u read this and come visit sometime! I am still doing terrible in school b/c of other things going on in life, and sience last summer sucked so so much i feel like i still need to make up for it and stuff, so i choose to never do schoolwork. It kinda sucks b/c i am sorta proving everyone right. Many people said theres no way i could make it through school and so far im not doing to well. But i think i just need to have the summer of my life this summer and settle down next year and things will be much better.
I do have a job that isn't too bad and it is like 2 minutes from my house. And jared works there too so its not that bad. I make pizzas for Papa Romanos, im still learning everything right now and only get $8.00, but I am training to be their new night manager so i will be getting like $10-11.00 this summer so thats pretty nice.
In this drought of not talking to this blogger, i did visit Western 2 times with Jared. It was such a different expierence, i feel as though im missing somthing going to a college without dorms. Everyone is so nice, all the guys are nice, the girls are even nicer, they don't judge you, they are just cool. I dunno, it seem like i bitch a lot and most of it is my fault. I could of gone to NY and lived in dorms, I could of passed my classes and not be prro whatever..... if anyone wants to visit just let me know.....

***"Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me."*** |

Saturday, February 07, 2004

Ah......... what a last 24 hours......
Lets start with last night.... I talked to a long lost someone, it was kind of weird, I still think about it sometimes on accident, but i was actually thinking about it the other day, and it was weird, its not even been one year..... oh to go back, but all i can do is learn from the mistakes and hope it changes me as a person for the better.
Then there was work today (credit card stuff) so i was working at the u of m basketball game, and one of the head people from MBNA bank came but just filed on out like anyone else, and i didn't do some things your saposta do for everyone, and hes like " im from the bank" so i am in more shit than i can even swim out of so who knows about that. Within 1 hour i had been called by 4 bosses, 2 of which i didn't even know existed. And i was in such a good mood, ah well.

Quote of the day
"Love has its own time, its own season, and its own reasons from coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you."

Friday, February 06, 2004

Ah ha, just another day...... Going on 11 days straight of working at one job or both, and im still broke. Figure that one out..... I start serving Monday so im kind of excited about that, hopefully ill make more money. But i think ill still be broke, so whatever.

More drama in the female part of my life. It just seems like, they only want it the second u don't want it anymore. And if you do things for them, it has to be a show, b/c no one can be that nice. But then the second you are seen with someone else, ure all of a sudden a player. Man these girls need to get their shit straight!...... not all girls are like this.... just the ones i come across..
I need another visis to Canada..... that would treat me RIGHT!

Quote of the day
"Sometimes it hurt more then we can bear.If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace..but we would be hollow..Empty rooms shuttered and dank.Without passion we'd be truly dead "

Quote of the day for yesturday
"If you have it [love], you don't need to have anything else, and if you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have. |

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

Just getting up from a long night of 2 soccer games. Getting ready for, fun, fun.
Time to complain about life...... School is still so fuckin hard, and it is so fusturating now that I am actually trying. Getting low grades makes me just want to not care anymore, but no school means no soccer so IM going to keep going.
Im am leaving the kitchen to be a server for a while. I have worked in kitchens since I was 15 and now im going to change it up a bit and see what happens. Hopefully ill make a little more money, who knows.
From now on I shall leave you with a "quote of the day" so I hope you enjoy, and what better to start of with than my favorite quote.....

" ... Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Mattew 6:34

***Feel free to coment on Quotes and or share some of your own*** |

Sunday, February 01, 2004 im sitting at home doing homework like a good kid and Justin calls me up. "Hey lets go to Canada" "No man i can't i got homework" "man fuck that u better be over here in like 20 minutes" " Man i got homework" "Man fuck that, quit being a bitch and come over here" "ok.... lemme take a shower" " Ok hurry the fuck up"

Just got back from a nice adventure in Canada.......
Me and Leo got in a drunkin fight with 3 girls and we got our asses kicked, then almost get in another fight while sitting in line to leave the country wich the cop broke up. Then got back to the house and a more drama was unfolding like always.... but it didn't involve me and very fun to watch. And since i work in a mear 5 hours i think it would be wise to go to sleep.
YES! 11 hour shift on Super Bowl Sunday....... how lucky am I?

....Just a side note, I think Liz will hate me for the rest of my life....
IM SORRY, I know my friendship doesn't really mean anything to you, but I really don't like people hating me, especially for somthing I didn't even mean to do and that I said sorry for, but if thats how its gotta be, then i guess theres nothing i can do.

"I am a WAZA Warrior"....... yes i brought my yellow to the club, because thats how i roll


Thursday, January 29, 2004

Just got home from work...... very exciting. Lots of papers to write because I love saving everything for the last second. Took me 2 1/2 hours to record this damn speech today and I still think it sucks..... and it was about myself..... boy is this school thing ever not for me.
Big day tomorow, giving it one last shot with the girl. Long story but got her the roses and stuff so well see what happens. Next msg will be one of joy or unhappiness..... well see. |

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Just returned from a long day of class work and 2 soccer games. I really suck at class and in high school, and 1st semester in college maby i didn't "apply" myself but now im going everyday and really trying and i am still getting shitty grades, it makes it almost not worth it.
Hopefully one day it will all make sence.....

3 choices for my future life....... let me know what you think
A. Stay at Scraft and keep playing soccer and try to transfer to D-1 and/or persuit my invatation to tryout for the Cleveland Force.

B. Take a few years off "Life" and move to Colorado and work in a resturanunt at night and snowboard all day.... and take that time to figure out what i want to do in life.

C. Join the marines, get some discipline, and figure out what i want to do with life. |

Monday, January 26, 2004

.......Just got back from Boyne, Boarding was great. And back to work & school tomorow. And my Shannon dramas remain in effect. But soon it will all be worth it.
Big soccer game tomorow. U-23 WAZA (My Team) VS Adult WAZA 9:45 Wixom..... Come watch
Indoor nationals 2 weeks away with u-23 WAZA team.........Can't wait |

I have been inspired by Ross's life storied to put mine here. Everyone eventually finds out all the stuoid things i do daily, so i have decided to just publish them so that everyone can hear about them soon after. Hope ya enjoy, feel free to add coments. |